理想=零蛋

“到维也纳深造？”，“哇好浪漫哦！”就像小说般的情节一样，男主角为了理想不顾一切地迈向音乐之都。在浪漫的都会里，拿起笛子吹出首首悦耳动听的曲子画面好美哦！音乐老师昨晚向我们提起了他即将要实行的维也纳计划，一刹那间我的思绪是复杂的。我一边玩闹地怪罪老师弃学生们不顾，一边羡慕着老师的决心。心想为何他能清楚地知道他所要追求的是什么？就那么勇敢的往理想前进。。。

而你呢，刘惠娥？你的理想又是什么？理想对我是那么陌生的字眼，似乎离我好远，遥不可及。你到这世上做了那些有意义的事了吗？或是为自个儿定下了那些奋斗目标？尤始至终我还没找到答案，我不知道自个儿的生存价值也没想到我究竟要往哪儿走。是这样吗，大多数的人都像我这样慢无目的活着吗？还是唯独我一人抱着'零'在慢步啊? 又或是生活太安稳了让我在闲暇之余开始为找寻“理想”而苦恼？这理想之谈是我太奢求了吗？

说到“理想与现实”，我们的上一代总是为三餐劳心力，付出几乎一生只求一份安饱。那是处在一个现实的社会与生存博斗。我们这一代呢？只要努力、不挑剔三餐于安乐窝并不成问题。那这理想之谈是出自于不满足现状吗？贪得无厌地寻求生活上的另一种挑战吗？再往后想的话，我们的下一代又会处在一个什么样的空间寻求些什么样的事与物？哈哈。。。这一代我都搞不清楚，还在为下一代操什么心啊？！

六月份即将告一段落，我是糊里糊涂地过了半个年头呢？还是安然无恙地度过与世无争的太平年？是心态吧？！往好的一方面想，我是过得好好的！往另一方面想的话，我还在拥抱着零蛋过日子。

现状：刘惠娥的理想是个大零蛋！

Saturday Night Fever

I felt bad...

But at the same time, I was touched...
And deep down, I can feel the loving care...
So I am feeling good actually...

Last Friday I attended a wine appreciation class with colleague. Didn't have too much wine but probably a mixture of 5-6 different wine types and no proper dinner that led to a major malfunction the next day. I was sneezing and feeling feverish so I popped a panadol pill and rested on Saturday hopefully to get well by Father's Day. By afternoon my running nose didn't get better and I went to see a doctor. He gave me some pills for running nose only as I wasn't having a fever. But who knows my fever came back in the evening and got worst in the night time. My temperature shot high till hubby got very worried. He started to sponge my forehead with wet towel from 4.30am. All I could remember was him asking worriedly "Are you having chicken pox again, why are you having such high fever?" and I still made fun of him by poking his cheek while he was having his mouth full of bread. I could see that he got busy with sponging, checking my temperature, apply ointment, make sure I was comfortable enough.

Hubby finally managed to bring my temperature down after 2 hours of faithful sponging and I was feeling so much better without the hotness. I overheard telephone conversation about we couldn't make it to the Father's Day gathering. I felt so bad that we had to give it a miss. Hubby always values the chance of get-togethers.

I rested for another few days and when I was about to return to work on Wednesday I felt dizziness and nauseous that I wasn't confident that I could make my way to office. Therefore I decided to rest for another day. Hubby got worried again as I was home alone. He worried that I might faint any moment without people around to take care of me. He sms me to check my condition but at the same time he dared not keep messaging so as not to disturb my rest. Later during the night time he told me he actually thought of asking me to sms him hourly so that he knows I am alright. I laughed and replied him "So troublesome ah" and assured him that I am alright.

Do It Yourself

My TV console is in a dying stage. The clear glass panel got unremovable stains and the doors are having difficulties to close properly. Wood dusts are accumulating at corners for whatever the reason is, I no longer care to find out. My suggestion to change it was turned down by the house master :( Well, guess I have to live with the dying console for couple of months more before it finally RIP (rest in peace or rip itself off).

(before)

(after)

I bought a tinted black adhensive film from the hardware store and I planned to paste it on the stained glass. The film costed $17+ and based on the instructions stated it wasn't difficult to DIY. Initially I was pretty ambitious, I even thought of cutting out some pattern designs before pasting. But dropped the idea after realising that its not easy and might spoil the film if I don't have a pair of steady hands. Therefore, the final decision was just to paste the original film and it turned out nicely. And after pasting I discovered that the film is reflective, so it double up as a mirror for my boys. I am so happy and proud of my DIY job! After this, my confidence level is boost up, might take up more challenging tasks next. Wonder will hubby starts to worry our house is at my mercy???